Today I’m sitting with awe and love for the man that’s not only fathered my son but also taken the responsibility to help care for and raise my daughter. A man who may not always do the right thing but always strives to make it right. A man I’m grateful to have built the last decade of my life with.
Today is giving me pause, and cause, to reflect on all the men who’ve guided me, supported me, abandoned me, and given me tough life lessons.
As I listen to the chatter of my son and his uncle, I realize how lucky he is to have such a full life. The supports he will need are around, available, and willing to hear him when he speaks.
My favorite male relationship was with my Uncle Mike. In fact, I’ve named my son after him hoping to instill the character of Mike in Grayson’s future.
The same uncle that told me as a teenager that the beauty in my eyes is more important than the shape of my body. The same uncle that told me that when I needed to cry – it was OK, and he never forgot a single birthday. He always made me feel loved – even at my worst. He taught me to honor myself, enjoy myself, follow my intuition, and not fear for what others think. This is the man I bid a happy father’s day to if only he was still around to receive it. I think if him often.
There have been many men who’ve influenced my growth. Employers, absent father, abusive stepfather, supportive male friends, cousins, uncles, both my babies daddies, and now my son. I’m so lucky for all the trials I’ve had the opportunity to over come and I am sending genuine love to all of those who have shown me how to be the best version of myself yet. Happy father’s day✌.
What have the masculine energies filled your life with? What lessons have you learned? Have you forgiven or thanked them today?
Happy father’s day to all the men that have graced my life. You are appreciated more than I can express.
In health and wellness
This meme may seem true-r than most recent statements about myself. In regards to my random thirst for adventure, my hip-hopping from one fun thing to another, and my burst of inspirations.
Much like a hang over for most – my dissappointment takes a lot more time to shrug off than it did when I was young.
Back then I had it in me to try and try again. I believe success has been found through my failures and broken plans. But as an “adult” there’s so much more at stake……so much more to lose.
I could sit here and air my grievances but if you know me….you’ve probably already heard it and it’s honestly not helping me overcome.
The most recent unfulfilled plan has taken an incredible toll on me this time. I’m recovering the way I do. Through yoga, meditation, and quiet time alone to reflect and revise.
I am, however, left wondering if my zest for adventure and newness has been stripped from my being. If I’ll ever have the strength and supports to build the absolute highest dream for my life or if I am in fact doing that right now.
This amount of quiet time is unfamiliar to me. I feel like keeping low and reserving my passion for the next big thing is crucial —- but what if it never comes — what if this phase is over? And who am I if I can’t claim to be my same old self?
These are open ended questions, I rationally understand that this is good it’s the opening for something new to come in but unlike the many changes before I can’t predict the outcome.
I’ve come so far in my evolution. These next steps are unfamiliar, a wee bit scary, and unpredictable – just the way I’d always hoped they’d be.
So much muchness is coming……
Where are you at in your health and wellness?
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Yes, that’s the best way to describe me…or it has been for years. I like to live in the now and commitment guarantees an outcome. I don’t believe in guarantees.
I’m simple. I like coffee in the morning. Quiet time to myself. New material to study. Oh and people who can entertain my overflowing and ever-changing train of thought.
I’ve found a beautiful balance within my work. My business’s that grow themselves and my lineup of new tasks and clients.
Right now – literally today – I will be emersing myself in a change of seasons. Where my world changes from a meditative aquatic therapy class to exciting out-door hooping tricks and events.
This will be a sweet ending to my second year at the Temple Gardens Hotel and Spa. A beautiful two years with a company who sought me out and set me loose to develop my own program. This is my newest baby turning two! The evolution has been a calming yet inspiring experience that I’m grateful for beyond words.
Classes begin again September 1. This is a commitment that excites me ~ I look forward to a third term with the spa for 2017/2018. I hope to spend more time with those familiar faces and meet more beautiful travelling souls.
Many thanks to everyone who took the time to grace the waters during this 2016/2017 season. Enjoy your summer!
It’s my way of life. I’m not afraid to seek it and to speak it. I often faulter in the execution but enjoy the process along the way.
I am seeking opportunity. The more off the cuff the better. I’m seeking those interested in empowering me, being empowered by me, and providing significant opportunities for those around us. Creating a community of people who are bound together by passion and love and ready to build each other up.
To take on a project is fun. Life affirming. Not only do I take joy in the completion of a project but also the creation. Creating “what ifs” and solutions. Taking this glimpse of a dream and building it into a reality.
I’ve always been a powerful supporter of those around me. Attracting those who dream big and are able to follow their passions.
I’ve often felt “unstable” never desiring the 9-5 grind or long term commitment to a job. Its never been fulfilling to me to commit. I’m more of a flow with the project type. One who can lend an experienced, well-worked hand when needed. With the start ups and the expansions that’s exactly where I excel and where I belong.
Many inspirations are ready to be realized. I’m ready to expand as the opportunity requires. I wonder what’s next.In health and wellness
This accurately describes my intention in this life. To learn. To expand my knowledge and push my boundaries. Through various classes I’ve realized the methods that don’t work for me, along with many that do. It’s part of the process, my process to higher education.
As an instructor, my task is to continually learn and challange myself. To be constantly expanfing and finding tge best ways to relate the informatin to you. I hope as I do this, you’re inspiration will be sparked in a way that’ll drive your desire for more knowledge and more practise.
Some classes are best led with clear detailed step-by-step instructions. Others by movement and repeated physical/visual examples. It’s hard to know how a group of people learn best in any setting.
If my goal is to teach the basics of hooping. Allowing you to pick up a hoop and hoop-dance to any song there needs to be at least 4 classes of straight instruction and skill development along with a few classes of flow example.
If my goal is to lead a class through an aquatic therapy meditative session, I need to have a clear, repetitive script ready with small changes along the way.
Each group is different. Birthday parties, outdoor events, mother daughter team yoga.
The key is staying present and really feeling into what will create the best ongoing experience for this group. As soon as I pose that question, I begin to learn.
I love what I do and can’t wait to see you in class.
In health and wellness
The image of meditation is of someone sitting in lotus position, serene look on their face, back straight, shoulders relaxed with their thumb and first finger connecting.
That image may have truth to it but rest assured that’s not the only way to a meditative state.
Have you ever had a great “stare”? Gazing intently ahead of you – not looking at anything but doing so with great focus? That great stare where you’re afraid to blink and loose it snapping ypu back to reality? Who knows the comfort and stillness of that stare every muscle in your body relaxed. It’s Devine!
Often while doing a repetitive activity, I find myelf lost in the motion and pace. Mind empty eyes serene? Muscles relaxed yet engaged.
If yes, you’ve meditated and I encourage your practicing it more often.
This week my mind has been full of the thought of emptying through meditative means. I attended a beautiful crystal bowl meditation that had me blessed out and blissed up giving me cause to pause and appreciate the gift it was.
Moving on to my hoop class Thursday night I found myself in sync with my hoop and just moving through whatever motions came. No direction or fore-thought but just a full on self-centered hoop flow and it occurred to me that people need this. Again and again in all areas of their life. Whether through silent meditation. Binaural beats meditation, movement, or through stillness. Meditation in daily life is needed….it’s required. Another way to become self-centered and beat the stress of daily life.
There are so many opportunities for meditation in our city I truly encourage you to jump on board and try something new.
This week I’ll run my pilot program for Exploring the Silence meditation. Giving you a few tools to take home with you and encorporate more peace and calm in your day to day life.
Tools – four of them to help you design your best life.
Sunday 6pm at the Cosmo Center in Moose Jaw. Be sure to enter through the brown south facing door and up the stairs.
Donations are gratefully accepted.💜
So it looks like we’ve made it! The last chakra in this program and what feels like the most significant. Yet, somehow, I feel at a loss of words. What to write and how to describe it. This beautiful riveting energy center. What’s it about? How does it relate to ourselves and our lives?
Your consciousness. The very essence linking you with the entire universe. The source where you were conceived and manifested. The illusory pattern that every physical piece of matter in your life began from.
Maybe I can’t describe it to you as its deeply personal and individual for every one. That only you can know and explore what exists within this chakra. This radiant chakra.
I can describe to you what it looks like balanced. And I can explain to you the excesses and deficiencies and their affects on your life. But to truly understand. You yourself need to delve deep. Asking question upon question and lovingly receiving the answers. Where do these questions come from and how deeply can we follow them in? Go within……or email me here to get on board to our next 7 day chakra program.
In absolute health and wellness