Hitting the sweet spot.

It’s not hard to see what a 360 my life has taken in the passed few years.  

Everything is coming together and there’s space in my life to yearn for more again.

For one – I’m a yoga teacher.  A dream attained after years of study and work.  I don’t know that it’s been as hard as it could be but it’s been work.

It does not escape me that everytime I proudly say I’m a teacher I get awkward glances at my midsection.  I know the perfect poised body of the typical yoga teacher but I’m definately not it.

What I do know is I fell down the stairs last week.  Like, ALL THE WAY.  It was terrifying (and hilarious in hindsight).  My one foot pinned behind me as I plummeted quickly no chance to stop myself.  I was hurt – my left ankle and more.  I was able to walk away mostly ok… just a little pissed off.  One week later- playing games with my son.  I landed on my foot wrong and sprained it.  The right foot this time.  The pain was excruciating.  Two days later my ankle was fine (a little swollen) but I was riding my bike pain free.

Without the knowledge my studies have afforded me.  The flexibility I have gained and the trust I have in my body to heal itself I don’t think I’d be “up and running” this quickly.  

I may not have the perfect yoga body but I have something more valuable.  The flexibility to take these falls well and the ability to keep living my life right after them.  It’s a far cry from 5 years ago.

Secondly, confidence in my ability to learn close to anything.  Fear is a motivator rather than a debilitated.  If I’m scared to do it I know I’ll be trying in no time.   And I’ve understood the capacity for my brain to learn and relearn.  I love to study new things and I am constantly searching for more out of life and often it delivers .

Millions of people pay dearly to mask the signs of their aging and in their raw beauty in all honesty, I couldn’t be more proud of the experience and confidence I gained or more grateful to the generations of women before paving this path the best way they knew how.  

Getting older, wiser, more confident, more direct is a blessing.

In health and wellness.

Amanda Zentner ❤

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Celebrating the masculine.

Today I’m sitting with awe and love for the man that’s not only fathered my son but also taken the responsibility to help care for and raise my daughter.  A man who may not always do the right thing but always strives to make it right.  A man I’m grateful to have built the last decade of my life with.

Today is giving me pause, and cause, to reflect on all the men who’ve guided me, supported me, abandoned me, and given me tough life lessons.
As I listen to the chatter of my son and his uncle, I realize how lucky he is to have such a full life.  The supports he will need are around, available, and willing to hear him when he speaks.

My favorite male relationship was with my Uncle Mike.  In fact, I’ve named my son after him hoping to instill the character of Mike in Grayson’s future.  

The same uncle that told me as a teenager that the beauty in my eyes is more important than the shape of my body.  The same uncle that told me that when I needed to cry – it was OK, and he never forgot a single birthday.  He always made me feel loved – even at my worst.  He taught me to honor myself, enjoy myself, follow my intuition, and not fear for what others think.  This is the man I bid a happy father’s day to if only he was still around to receive it.  I think if him often.

There have been many men who’ve influenced my growth.  Employers, absent father, abusive stepfather, supportive male friends, cousins, uncles, both my babies daddies, and now my son.  I’m so lucky for all the trials I’ve had the opportunity to over come and I am sending genuine love to all of those who have shown me how to be the best version of myself yet.  Happy father’s day✌.

What have the masculine energies filled your life with?  What lessons have you learned?  Have you forgiven or thanked them today?

Happy father’s day to all the men that have graced my life.  You are appreciated more than I can express.

In health and wellness 

Amanda Zentner✌